Assalamualaikum for 2017

Assalamualaikum

From my previous post in 2016, ive promised to update every 2 weeks and i didnt know that “2weeks” is already almost 2 years now. Haha. Sorry lovelies! I dont know what have been stopping me from writing. Time? Business? Family? Ntahlah, selalu tertanya2 diri kenapa malas sangat nak blog skrg.. mungkin sebab happy with life now? Erm dulu tak happy ke?? oklah, jom cerita sikit the phases i went through and i believe everybody is going through and went through the same thing.

4 Stages of Life. 

Heard of it? Im sure u all do. Lets go stage by stage.

First stage - Mimic

Kita semua di lahirkan helpless. We cant walk, cant talk. Sebab tu kita ada parents, orang keliling, friends to help us. As "children" the way we learn is by watching and mimicking others. At that stage, i was a follower. Orang buat tu, i pun nak buat. Orang blog kita blog. Orang kahwin kita kahwin. Orang #ootd kita pun nak #ootd. Btol tak? Bila dah puas ikut orang itu ini, kesedaran tu akan datang sendiri, eh why im doing this? so not cool. But from this first stage lah i belajar dari kesilapan, belajar untuk buat keputusan.

So kesilapan yang paling besar during my first stage of life is -Kahwin terburu2. Yup! tahun 2010 ialah tahun my batch kahwin, almost all my school friends at that time are getting married. So, sbgai follower yang tak begitu matang ketika itu, nak kahwin jugak. So kahwin! Jodoh kami tak panjang oleh sebab tiada persefahaman dari hari pertama kahwin sampailah saat bercerai. Demi Allah, tiada penyesalan dalam diri atas penceraian itu, sebaliknya terasa sangat 'bebas' dan lega yang teramat. Dalam hal ni, i tak salahkan sesiapa. Semua orang buat silap, dan ada hikmah di sebaliknya. And apa hikmahnya?? Baca sampai habis.


Second Stage - Self Discovery

In this second stage, Allah bagi i peluang untuk kenal diri sendiri. It involved a lot of trial-and-error and experimentation. For example, I have Masters in Human Recource Development, but i dont want to work coz i hate interviews (stupid reason I know) So i tried a lot of business. Duit tak payah cakap lah, banyak habis sini sana semua tak jadi. In this stage jugak i got the chance to experiment living in new place - ran off to Istanbul and work with dad. (tak payah interview haha).

Sebelum mula kerja, dad said enjoy la dulu hilangkan stress (kononnya lepas divorce kan) and kebetulan masa tu few friends of mine are coming to Istanbul for vacation. So apa lagi, i joinlah jadi tourist guide hehe. Dan ketika itu jugalah  Allah pertemukan i dengan Mr. F. Sangat strategic aturan Allah kan? SubhanaAllah. Perkenalan dgn Mr. F selama 2 tahun membuatkan kami dan hubungan itu matang, dan banyak juga i belajar dari kesilapan dulu supaya ia tak berulang. Terus terang i cakap, bukan senang, it was a long-distance relationship. I balik Malaysia setahun sekali masa tu and baru dapat jumpa. Alhamdulillah after 2 years, kami kahwin!

Third stage - Commitment

So at third stage is the great consolidation of ones life. Now u can start to say goodbye to the friends who draining u, goodbye to all hobbies that are mindless waste of time and the angan2 mat jenin that are clearly not coming true anytime soon.

At this stage lah i started to know my real friends, yang dulu2 ade berpuluh2 kawan, tapi real friends sebenarnya alahai sikit je. I jugak rasa nikmat perrkahwinan tu. SubhanaAllah nikmatnya sungguh indah, tak terucap dgn kata2. Patutlah orang cakap kahwn tu best! Hehe.. Ya, masih baru.. dan terlalu awal untuk cakap apa tapi I doa agar Allah pinjamkan kebahagiaan ini hingga ke JannahNya. Amin InsyaAllah

Generally, at this stage, u focus what ure best at. Alhamdulillah, im best at beading and till now Queen Sequeen is going strong! Focus on the most important relationships in ur life. Suami nombor satu! Third stage is where u get everything done.

So im still at my third stage of life, baru nak start a stable life with husband. Genap dua tahun, kami tunggu dan Alhamdulillah im currently 18 weeks pregnant. Macam2 usaha kami buat tapi Allah lebih tahu bila kami 'bersedia'.

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Okey lovelies, its 2.30am now.. waiting for Mr. F to get my Mc.D.. (not me, its the baby!). Till my next entry. good night!

Oh my its 2016!?

Assalamualaikum

Masih ada orang baca ke blog ni? Should i continue blogging ? Hihihi! oklah, i think i want continue but please dont expect me to update everyday okey? Maybe twice a week? haha. So whats new?

1. Started a small business on beading (1.3.2015) 

Ive been dreaming to run my own business and over the years i have soooo many of business ideas and many false starts. Ive tried to sell clothes and hijabs then one thing i felt that always held me back was the lack of funding. Why? I didnt know what to do with the old stocks.. Then i realize that u must keep urself updated to the latest fashion in order to sustain in d fashion industry. BUT! if ure rich enough to have big capital than it wd be another story lahh.. plus i wasnt fully focus on the business coz i was working full time in a Turkish company in Istanbul

When mom was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in August 2014, i decided to quit my job and went back to Malaysia and i took care of her.. FULL TIME. i was jobless for few months until mom passed away. I was really down, depressed n decided to keep silent for a quite some time. Everybody keep pushing me to find a job.. Nope! i dont want to work! Phd? nope! coz i still do nothing with my Masters.. Haha so what you want to do MARYYAAMMMM??

One day i told myself i need to find a way to get a business up n running with a small capital.. i mean REALLY small capital. How much? Trust me, i started with just RM500. I knew its gonna be  a challenge but i had to somehow make it happen.

ALHAMDULILLAH...  now im happy with my growing beading business named Queen Sequeen.. its has been a year now, m happy i can run my own business and insyaAllah we will be expending soon! Its reall fun.. exciting and of coz sometimes it can be really stressful...! kerja mana tak stress ye dak? So here are some of beading works.. u can see more on my instagram! kindly follow @queensequeen

2. Happily Married to Mr. F (6.6.2015)

6th June- the day we supposed to have our engagement ceremony.. yes! engagement! Total of 150 guests were invited and everything was already in order. I did my own dulang hantaran (sangat simple coz its more like merisik) i beaded my own dress n thought of having of small corner for sarung cincin. BOOM! suddenly dad changed his mind and decided to cancel the engagement and do Nikah instead. Like whoaaaattt?! Haha we have only less than 3 weeks to prepare everything... Kursus Kahwin for him, HIV test, Borang Nikah, adding guests list, Tok Kadi, Wedding dress ( i aint wearing that tunang dress that i beaded my self haha), Catering, Dias, Make up, Door gifts n bla bla... can i get everything done in 2 weeks???

Alhamdulillah.. Allah pemudahkan semua urusan, kalau nak ikut logik lah.. borang nikah n kursus kahwin cannot be done in 2 weeks.. But this ustaz from Jabatan Agama Islam was super duper nice memudahkan semua procedure.. Alhamdulillah!

Thanks to Cosry for my beautiful dress.. i love it very much! n thanks so much for accepting my last minute order.. and guess what?? I didnt know how is it going to be like until the final fitting... really! i trust him! i have to say the dress was gorgeous!

On the very day.. everything was perfect and 80% just like my dream wedding ( 100% if its at night with transparent canopy haha!) Everybody didnt believe that everything was prepared in just 2 weeks! Thanks sayang for helping me out! last minute lagi seronok dari plan berbulan2, pastu gaduh berkoyan2, pastu mak bapak meroyan... hmmm  *peace*

Decor by Adiputra Decor

Dias by Adiputra Decor

So much love for his mom, thats why i love him!

Dress by Cosry

Doorgifts - Sejadah and custom made pouch by Aisyah Wani

Sayangs..

Tak perlu ikut adat, 3 balas 3 tak salah. Duit hantaran pun tak perlu tayang2.. 

If arwah mom still around, she would love my Faizal so much. 

Okey! satu lagi korang tak tahu.. hihi! the moment dad decided that we should nikah, the first ever thing in my to-do list was.. dress? nope! borang nikah? nope! i wasnt really worried about all that.. i was more worried about our honeymoon destination! haha.. and we had chosen SYDNEY!!

Why Sydney? Coz its June and obviously its summer in Europe and both of us love cold whether and yes! Sydney is perfect!

Sydney...

Then ... Perhentian

Then.. Istanbul

Then... Cappadocia

Then... Izmir

Then.. Cambodia

Then.. Vietnam

Then ... Madinah Al Munawarrah

And Alhamdulillah kami berpeluang menjadi tetamu Allah.. Makkah Almukaramah

Okey, its already late! Thats all for now.. will update soon! Stay tuned!

Al-Fatihah

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Al-fatihah untuk arwah mama Saidah Binti Annuar yang telah kembali ke rahmatullah pada 1 Feb lepas. Jenazah selamat di bawa ke Malaysia dari Guangzhou pada hari ke-4 dan terus dikebumikan pada malam yg sama di bukit Kiara, Semoga roh arwah di tempatan bersama golongan para solihin,

Kami redha dengan pemergiannya. Allah loves her more than we do and didnt want her to suffer more. Sebagai anak, i redha, lega dan bersyukur dapat bersama arwah mama di saat2 akhir dengan bisikan kalimah syahadah hingga nafasnya yang terakhir. Alhamdulillah.

Dah 12 hari arwah meninggalkan kami sekeluarga tapi suaranya masih terngiang2 seoalah2 dia masih ada dalam rumah. Honestly rumah sunyi takde dia coz ive been  with her tru out since she was sick and took care of her. Yes i know somehow i need to accept the fact shes already now with Allah.

Missing her truly, madly and deeply. AlFatihah.... ;'(

Modern Hospital Guangzhou - Oil Seed Removal

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Hehe lets do some make over! Bukan besarkan mata, atau kecikkan hidung atau cucuk collagen. Tapi its oil seed removal. Yeah, like other people, to have oil seeds or milia seeds (white heads) or milk spots around the eyes is the last thing i want to have on my face. I can still consider pimples as they just come and go. But these oil seeds are permanently there and its quite disturbing.

I used to buy so many kind of beauty products especially eye cream coz im having a bad dark circle and that can be the cause of the growth of oil seeds around my eyes. Besides that, the level of cholesterol inside your body can also cause oil seeds. Ah lagi satu! taking too much of chicken. Oppsss i just love KCF,, sorry!

So since our room is in the same level with medical cosmetics department, i decided to get it done here. Alang2 sebulan duduk sini.. buat je lah. kan? So alhamdulillah, it has been removed using laser and walla! rasa seperti di lahirkan semula. Ewah!

So those who want to get it done, you can go to Herbaline for consultation. My cousin suggested me to go there tpi tak pegi2 coz i heard they do the extraction manually. Siapa yang tak kisah and tahan sakit, boleh pegi. Hehe

Ok, thats all for today. banyak plak masa update blog kan.. alhamdulillah mom's condition is getting better and i have lil bit of time. Thanks for reading!

Alhamdulillah! Good News!

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Syukur sangat2 that finally Allah have answered all of our prayers. Berkat solat hajat dan bacaan yasin from my friends, mom's friends, family, dan juga jemaah masjid subang jaya (you know who you are) mom is slightly improving. The CT scan result showed that the tumor on her right lung, neck and brain are shrinking and giving positive reaction to the treatment. Alhamdulillah. Its almost 60% cured.

Just during the process of recovering, mom started to lose her hair. Pendek kata, dah botak skrg. and i know she feels down coz shes the type who really take care of her hair.. She always get her hair permed and colored. But i tried to divert her attention by keep saying she looks cute and younger and looook sooooo punk rock mom! hehe.. And sempat juga dia balas "kalau pegi color rambut. maybe dia charge 3 ringgit je kot?" hahahaha! And she said she can be on TV commercial for Yun Nam Hair Care. Hahaha! Classic joke mom!

No words can describe how happy i am to hear the good news. Syukur pada mu ya Allah kerana mengangkat doa2 kami yang kerdil ini. Alhamdulillah.

Short Tour in Guangzhou

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Alhamdulillah on our second visit to Guangzhou we managed to go around the city coz mom is feeling much healthier compared to our first visit here. almost 20days in Guangzhou on our first visit, believe it or not, we just stayed put in the hospital. tak pegi mana2 puun.. pegi kedai runcit depan hospital je beli fruits and eggs.. huuuu...

So yesterday sempat la we all jln2 around Beijing Lu ( Beijig Road) shopping baju murah2 .. Im so glad and happy to see mom can walk normally, and can smile for camera.. Alhamdulillah!

Guangzhou at night is really fantastic! rasa macam kat new york. I didnt bring my camera so snap pkai phone jer and we didnt plan to go for a leisure walk at the park coz we didnt expect mom to be energetic that day. Alhamdulillah takpe we can go anytime.. we have 1 month here! 

Waiting for brothers to come over the weekend! more to come! more places to discover!.. So mom, please be strong and keep healthy ok. muah!

Tahun Baru, Kakak Baru- The day my brother got married

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Alhamdulillah selesai sudah the wedding ceremony from both side on the 1st and 3rd January. Well, i can say this was the perfect and beautiful first wedding of 2015 and seeing my brother being nervous (nak pakai baju pun tak boleh masuk and we adik beradik need to assist him) before the big moment made me burst out loud. haha!

All the beautiful decor was perfectly done by Adiputra (instagram @adiputra_decor) which fully recommended by me .. ehem! Chewah berangan nak naik pelamin so kasi abang test dulu. ALhamdulillah everything was nice and the wedding ceremony looked so classy and elegant, just like what we expected. Thanks Adi and Azman!

Makeup sponsored by the groom. Why not kan? Adik pengantin pun nak vogue de vass! hehehe. The beautiful touch was by Amien. Thanks so much! and thanks to along for sponsoring the make-over session for me and mom. Hehehe.

The wedding attire for both bride and groom was beautifuly done b Syomir Izwa. Simple and elegant. Tak yah nak mekno2 sangat kan. I love the dress! Seriously looking at their wedding makes me sooooooo want to get married really soon. haha.. doa2kan lah. Somehow we have to postponed the plan due to mom's condition. Takpelah, kalau ada jodoh tak kemana.. ye dak? Hehe and both my dresses were perfectly done by Teresa Fashion Boutique. Thanks!

Thanks to those who are came to the wedding, those who came to help sampai terlondeh2 sampin juga banyak2 terima kasih, those who help me with the door gifts, ushering the guest.. thanks a lot! you know who you are.. me love you all long time! muah~ Yang datang makan je pun terima kasih ok! hehe..

Alhamdulillah, bertambah lagi sorang jemaah perempuan. BarakAllahulak, wabaraka'alayk, wajamaa baynakuma fi khayr! InsyaAllah till Jannah!