It has changed me..

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Dah lama tak cerita2 kan.. Hehe.. macam biasa la.. sibuk sikit.. before i begin i would like to thank to all my loyal readers yang still baca blog ni.. i know i have been changing the link and title for quite often.. haha.. content pun macam ntah pape.. but u still visit my blog and looking forward for the next entry.. (ni pun ada orang dah sound bila nak update) Ok, for this entry ..let me continue with my hijab story.. my hijab journey..

Hijab. It has changed me bit by bit in so many ways since i wore it. I love it and i just cant wait to get up in the morning and try some new style with hijab..  Memang betul, the first stage of wearing the hijab i have faced so so many challenges.. (ni case iman tak kuat, jangan tiru aksi ini)..

Firstly i felt different and awkward among my turkish friends.. Haha yeah mostly they are not wearing hijab and sexaayyy.. Secondly i felt weird and cant add my style with hijab, i have so limited clothes and even i went shopping with my friends i felt so envy that they can buy and wear anything but as for me i need to do some extra 'scanning' and open my eyes wider as i am wearing hijab now.. i cant simply grab those clothes like i used to .. Apart from that.. somehow i felt my self-esteem has dropped because some people say i look better without hijab.. huuu to be honest, it wasnt that easy at first to be seen different especially in your circle of friends that are not wearing hijab.. i can say it is much easier to be different inside but not on the outside..




Tapi tu semua mula mula je.. Biasala hasutan syaitan orang kata.. Alhamdulillah, Allah is Great, Allah is Beautiful. I managed the fear, uneasiness and comfortableness very well. Now i am stronger and my faith has grown.  Kalau niat tu memang untuk Dia..insyaAllah everything will be alright. And who said u cant add style with your hijab on? Haha.. ok let me share my story with all of you..

One day after the first week of wearing hijab, i was sitting down on my bed and termenung sejenak. Started to list down in my head all the clothes that i have (dalam otak tengah buat mix and match) looking at those clothes.. what to do with those short dress.. short sleeves tops.. and all those baju yang tak sesuai untuk pakai dengan tudung.. i really need to start develop my new wardrobe..

Ahaa.. i found  my old knee-length dress.. i love it sooo much because somehow the dress makes me looks slimmer.. takkan nak give away kan? So what i did was.. match the dress with my long black flared skirt.. wallaaa~ terus jadi kurung modern.. bravo maryam! haha tpi sebenarnye bila tengok hijab fashion kat internet.. ramai je dah buat mcm tuu.. heeee.. sorry i lambat sikit! but what im trying to say here is hijab doesnt stop you to be stylo mylo.. boleh jer, asalkan you know how to wear it.. what to wear it with.. and when to wear it.. You will look absolutely gorgeous with your hijab. Cheh.. dah macam konon2 terer sangaat.. sorry just got excited with the new me. Honestly i love the new me!

Im not giving fashion advises here okey.. i know im not that fashionable.. im just sharing my hijab journey. Thanks to all who never stop giving me supports (as well as compliments) my family of course..mom and dad are very happy that their one and only stubborn naughty but sweet daughter has finally wear hijab and also to my fashion consultant Mr. F that always there to help me to take my stress to figure out the best hijab style that suit my face shape.. and also help me to sort out my new 'wardrobe' ( hari2 skype buat fashion show ok) Hehe and thank you so much for got me some beautiful shawls.. love them!

Kenapa dan bagaimana? Haaaa tu adalah soalan2 cepuk mas yang sering dilemparkan kepada saya sejak berhijab. Haha.. ramai jugak terkejut sebab if you were to ask me pun.. seriously i dunno why i decided to wear hijab .. niat memang dah ada.. tapi nak pakai after balik umrah ( if i were to go this year InsyaAllah).tak pun on mom's birthday kononye nak surprise dia.. tapi mungkin hidayah tu datang lebih awal.. it was just on one day after i got back from work.. my heart told me repeatedly and confidently that its time to wear hijab. So the next day on 11th Jan.. hijab was my crown!

Well, i guess thats all for today. now is the time for me to pack up and go home.. Oh! currently im on diet (maryam tak abis2 diet/ gym tapi tak kurus puuuun) ive gained 6kilos. thanks to you.. yes YOU! for always make me happy and never fail to amaze me.. and thats the main reason why im faaaatttt.. booooooo~ ok ladies.. thanks for reading. stay tuned! i dunno when will be the next entry but just stay tuned ok! love you and thanks for reading!

Sunday 19th Jan

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Some photos to share during Serkan's Wedding. Sorry there was no picture of the bride and the groom coz they were busy 'Halay' (turkish dance).. So just picture of us.. Hehe

2014 - Hijrah & Korban

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Hi ladies.. better late than never.. wishing everybody happy new year 2014! Every each new year is often seen as a time of rebirth, its the chance for everybody start anew. Everybody must be came up with the regular resolutions for this new year like losing weight (part of my list too) finding Mr. right, getting hitched but often our idea of what SHOULD change are too wide. 

As you all can see my current entry is about Hijrah and Korban.. and yes, 2014 is  some serious change for me.. i have marked 11.1.2014 was my full day of wearing Hijab. Well, this is not my first time wearing hijab.. the decision to fully cover was such a big step that i should make sure that i am ready for. So i took it one step at a time, started to wear it to work and now alhamdulillah i have started to wear to everywhere and again its step by step thing. 

I felt so much peaceful with the new me and i hope it will last insyaAllah. Its an amazing feeling when i wear it as i know i am covering my beauty for myself, future husband and Allah. Of course it was difficult at first to start with Alhamdulillah i managed to hold my head up high. 

"Allah has ordained this beauty, He likes this beauty and He is the Most beautiful" So ladies.. lets please our Most Beautiful Allah.

My Gucci.

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Aha! its not a handbag or any of Gucci stuff.. but its my new kitten and i named her Gucci.! Well, those who close to me and knows me well,  they will definitely know how i love cats! Cats are just such wonderful companions and started thinking to get one here in Istanbul. And taraa! i just got myself a Scottish Fold kitten yesterday.. and let me introduce to you.. my Gucci..

Hello! My name is Gucci and Im earless

This is my bungalow.. i wished i would have a bigger one!

Mummy, can i have this collar pleaseee.. it would be nice on me!!

Planning to get a Gucci collar for her but most designer collars are for dogs.. hmmph kena buat sendiri ni..! Hehe idea jahat sudah datang.. ok Gucci.. just wait for your new Gucci collar ok! will try to make one for you.. ok??

To all my loyal readers, guess thats all for now.. thanks for reading! stay tuned!

Caprice Gold FB Page!

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Hello everybody.. hope you ladies are having a great Monday! Monday blues, no? haha. Well actually i need a favor from all my loyal and lovely readers to like Caprice Gold FB page which ive created few months ago. Alhamdulillah we have reached 333 likes and our target is to get at least 1000 likes by end of this year. So rajinkanlah jari jemari anda yang runcing, montok2, manis2 itu ye.. Just click here-> LIKE!

.. and the story begins..

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Ive been looking a bracelet that i could match with my watch and ive always wanted a Pandora bracelet, but each time i went to Pandora i ended up confused with their thousands of charms and just walk off giving up. Haha. So one day, someone asked me do i like pandora and i said yes! but the only problem is.. i dunno how to begin my story bcoz there are lots of charms, and i was told just to choose one, yes just one charm to begin with.. Ok, i went to pandora and try to looked for one.. only ONE! i promised to myself.

As i was browsing through.. the sales person asked what was my occasion getting the charm and i told her its just a treat for myself (since takde orang nak belikan kaaannn...) haha.. looking at those charms, the price is like a bomb to me.. but since i like it so much, no harm in getting one.. hihi.. Ok, back to the sales girl, she was so helpful finding a suitable charm for me, she asked what i like to do, what is my hobby, do i have boyfriend. what i like to buy and i told her lil bit of my past and my current life ( perlu kee??) bla bla... and finally... this is what i got .. my first pandora.. my design.. my journey..

I got myself a dangling heart-shaped for the center piece and two pieces of heart-shaped clips as a stopper for left and right. (Its more than one charm Maryam!! Haha)  I love the design coz  the design of the piece has more meaning than the price.. It shows love and gives a feeling that i care and love for someone..

Well, i love what i have chosen, and im planning to add more and complete the whole bracelet coz these pandora charms are just so addictive.. u cant simply just get one.. u will want to get more and more.. Haha.. Luckily,its hard to find Pandora here in Istanbul, they have selling those charms at the small corner in selected watch shop and very limited.. If not,   i would definitely go and get a new charm for myself every week.. haha.. ( plus, ada orang tu cakap nak bagi sebulan satuuuuu.. aww thankkssss! so by the time i balik malaysia, i will get 3 charms la kan? haha)  really love my pandora and been wearing it everyday!

Ok, that all about my first pandora journey.. stay tuned for my next entry on my London getaway.. (nothing much pun.. the same London... haha) Ok girls, take care! Thanks for reading!

Something I want to share..

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Its Tuesday. Alhamdulillah the weather is turning cooler and a little less sun, its finally autumn here in Istanbul.. yeay! And today is my one and only all time favorite hero's birthday! Happy birthday papa! May Allah bless you on your special day, we wish u good health and steady wealth.. InsyaAllah.. Love u pa!

Talking about a hero, mama once told me that.. when u hold a man's hand and he makes ur heart beat faster, and he makes u feel all those butterflies feeling in ur tummy, she said, walk away from this man.. she even posted at my Facebook timeline saying dont find a man who solve ur problem, find a man who wont let u to face ur problem alone.. (well, ive seen this somewhere) whatever and wherever it came from, somehow her statement is true..

Honestly, ive always been someone who gets carried away with feelings, when mama advised and keep telling me that i should marry a man who loves me more than i love him, i knew but i just ignored. Ive always been the one who 'over-invest' in a relationship n i felt that i would always be the one who will love the other person more.

But as time goes by, after what ive gone through in my previous marriage, i began to open my eyes and see that love is not just some disney movie with a fairy-tale ending. Love is extremely hard when comes to marriage. Relationships are hard as well. We dont always get what we expect and just lovey dovey romantic moment, sweet words, are just not enough to make it work. Its more than that... and u just cant do it alone..

She was right.. find a man who loves u more than u do. Though u wont feel no great overwhelming passion at the beginning of the relationship (bcoz ur boyfriend or partner loves u more) yet, it feels good. Learn to love him more and keep believe in yourself that its something that would last longer insyaAllah.. and as for me, i would definitely find a man who i will feel warm, safe and secure each time im with him.. and that would be a man that im going to marry.. InsyaAllah



p/s : May Allah bless this long-distance relationship. Amiin